Procrastination?

I'm trying to prepare for my boards, but I've gotten involved with being a wife and mother again now that I have a moment to breathe: post nursing school.

It's 20 till 7pm; I've been up since 6am, and this is the first moment I sat down to do something I wanted to do. Cleaning for family visits this weekend. Grocery shopping. Making a dessert. Weeding the garden. All good things. But piling them all in one day leaves very little time for studying for the state board exam.

I will try to do at least 100 practice questions now. We'll see how that goes.

A Beginning

I've left nursing school. They have poured into me all that they are willing to give. They are not required to pass on one more morsel of knowledge to me. If I've received it all, why do I feel so unprepared to be a nurse? I have all that it takes, they tell me. I even graduated in the top three of my class. But I don't feel like I'm ready.

Experience is the best teacher, I bet you're thinking. It sucks getting "experience." I'm so thrilled with the opportunities before me, but at the same time petrified of .... of what? I don't even know. I know how to give good care to a laboring woman. I know what a nurse should look for, assess and do. I've just never done it before. It's that simple. I know.. But I don't feel like it is simple at all.

I am opening myself up for a life-changing experience. I've put the leg work in. Now it's time for some of the payoff. Working in a field that has been calling to me for years. This is a path I am supposed to be on at the moment. It came from another path.....and is leading to an even broader path. But, for right now, this is the path I'm meant to travel.

Ready or Not.

Launching

I have decided to Launch a blog as I launch my career as a new nurse.

I have just graduated from Nursing School from a large state university. I graduated with honors, which I worked very hard for and am very proud of.

I interviewed with several hospitals and accepted a position in Labor & Delivery. I plan on working in L&D for at least 2 years, obtaining experience. At the same time I am working towards my bachelor's degree with my final goal being a master's in midwifery to become a Certified Nurse Midwife (CNM).

I chose to name this blog, "Open Doorways" because the idea of a door closing and another one opening is exactly how my life has lead me to midwifery.

I began working as a doula, then a childbirth educator. It was like a slippery slope. The more I got involved in birth work, the more I wanted to be involved more! So, I decided to go back to school and start my education towards becoming a midwife.

So far, it has been incredibly hard work with even more incredible rewards! I am enjoying every step of the way.

I look forward to sharing my thoughts and experiences here on this blog with whomever may happen by.

As the Doors Open,
Leah